Sometimes I have a very strong yearning for a major change in my life. I know everyone (or at least many of us) would like our lives to be better--more money, less stress, personal fulfillment--but this seems to be something different.
At times I find myself wishing for some major event to occur within my life. An event that would bring significant change...in some cases an event that is actually tragic or morbid.
All in all, I have a lot of things to be thankful for...I am in love with and have a great relationship with my partner. I have a good job, making a relatively good salary, own a house, have my health, etc.Yet I sometimes have a longing for a major change..wishing it would happen to me rather then my making it happen.
I have taken some steps in the past--looking for another job, pursuing one of my dreams--but those have yet to yield any significant results.
Perhaps this is because I do have control of my life, but am not completely happy with how it's going. You often hear or read of someone who says "My life completely changed that day..." I can't say that I've ever had that happen to me...or if so, I didn't seem to notice or appreciate it.
Perhaps I find myself in "quiet desperation"...
All that said, I do appreciate what I have. I'm not going to stop trying to make things better and will always work to improve my life (and hopefully myself)...but my thoughts are sometimes disturbing. I know there's the obvious laziness within my wishing it would happen to me (rather than making it happen)...but why go to something tragic or morbid?
...careful what you wish for, I guess.
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