Self Analysis

So...I know in the scheme of things I am quite lucky. I have a good job with good pay and benefits. I have my health, a great partner, and good friends. I'll even go as far as putting my family in this "good" category even though we have the current gap between them knowing me fully and what our relationship would be if they did (I've covered some aspects of that in previous posts).

However, I still have times when I'm frustrated and asking myself...am I truly happy...am I making a difference...am I where I should be at this point in my life...why do I not feel that I'm living a fulfilled life? The questions that seem to lead many into a mid-life crisis.

If fact this past weekend, my friends and I were (half-jokingly) discussing if we had ever been through a mid-life crisis, and if so, what was it. Humorously enough, we decided we should coordinate any future mid-life crisis to occur as a group during a year we could spend travelling the world. If only...

When I'm thinking about this it always occurs to me that I don't feel that I have a passion in life. Which strikes me as quite sad. One of my major goals in life has been to become financially independent. Do something that will make me enough money to not have to worry about financial matters ever again.

...but...I also wonder if I were to identify my passion in life would I care as much about what I perceive as financial burdens--or material wants and needs. Is finding and acting upon your passion what leads to a more fulfilling life?

What does it mean that I haven't uncovered my life's passion at my age? I think it may be due to my fear of failure...which affects many areas of my life. Have I not found my passion because my fear keeps me from opening myself up to the opportunities needed to find it?  ...or am I emotionally "stunted" in some other way?