Self Analysis

For some reason I always seem to feel somewhat transitory or unable to "put down roots".

Perhaps this comes from the fact that I'm not out to my family. They wonder why I don't move back to my hometown, and I hesitate to find a house I would like to live in forever, since that would potentially cause a more explanatory conversation.

When I moved away from my home town, it was supposed to be temporary. Now more than ten years later, I have no intention of going back, but cannot share with my family the reasons why. Even when those reasons are the facts that I have found a partner in life and am happier than I've ever been.

Also, perhaps there is something about the gay lifestyle not fitting into the social norms that gives me this transitory feeling. I know many other gay couples have bought the "house with the picket fence", and even had the 2.3 children. Whether they are trying to fit in or actually are, I'm not sure. I just know that for some reason I haven't yet learned how to settle...